We quarrelled again. This is the second time in a span of 2 short weeks. I can't believe it. Makes me wonder if I have failed very badly as a girlfriend... The first quarrel made my heart bled, it hurt very much and before I can recover much, the second quarrel happened.

After yesterday's incident, I feel that I have been a very lousy girlfriend. I am unable to share his burden, his stress and his worries. In fact I have only been bothering him every day with my share of grumbles and ramblings. I haven't been as understanding as I should be and this is where I have failed. Failed very badly. I can't seem to open up my thots even though mentally I know I should be feeling this way, but emotionally, I can't let go and keep thinking otherwise.

The second quarrel made me look back at our relationship. I am scared. Where exactly are we heading to? We have applied for a flat, and this Friday to select our unit. But is this really the future that withholds for both of us? I dunno.. Really dunno and am pretty afraid that the the future is not what we have pictured or even similar.

I am suddenly afraid of the future. The dark and bleak future. Where is it leading me to and who will walk this dark journey with me? Will I end up all alone, walking endlessly to an end without a stop???

We quarrelled again. This is the second time in a span of 2 short weeks. I can't believe it. Makes me wonder if I have failed very badly as a girlfriend... The first quarrel made my heart bled, it hurt very much and before I can recover much, the second quarrel happened.

After yesterday's incident, I feel that I have been a very lousy girlfriend. I am unable to share his burden, his stress and his worries. In fact I have only been bothering him every day with my share of grumbles and ramblings. I haven't been as understanding as I should be and this is where I have failed. Failed very badly. I can't seem to open up my thots even though mentally I know I should be feeling this way, but emotionally, I can't let go and keep thinking otherwise.

The second quarrel made me look back at our relationship. I am scared. Where exactly are we heading to? We have applied for a flat, and this Friday to select our unit. But is this really the future that withholds for both of us? I dunno.. Really dunno and am pretty afraid that the the future is not what we have pictured or even similar.

I am suddenly afraid of the future. The dark and bleak future. Where is it leading me to and who will walk this dark journey with me? Will I end up all alone, walking endlessly to an end without a stop???