Lately I have been very interested in sign languages. I have been pondering on what new courses I can take to enrich myself. Wanted to sign up for Jap or Korean classes, but the timing clashes with the Cardiobox that I intend to take up with Shanel at Tampines Stadium. So I decided to take up sign language. I feel that it is a very interesting language and have always been amazed at how the deaf and mute can sign so fast and communicate through these signs. I have mastered A to Z already. Felicia taught Shanel and I when we took the bus to Tampines on Monday evening. So yesterday during lunch, Shanel and I were signing like mad, and always breaking into hysterical laughters and nobody knows why. And usually by the time we finish signing a WORD, we are already exhuasted. Too long already! Hahahaha

Shanel's new cosy nest is almost totally up. Looking at her so excited with each and every decor, lightings, furniture, makes me really envy her and I can't wait to have my own home too. Already have so many plans and ideas in my mind, but can't realise them as yet, it is a kinda torture and makes next year feel like it's never going to come. I can't wait to view the flats, decide on the contractor, decide on the furnishings, decide on the colors of the flat, decide on which electrical appliances we going to buy, etc. There are so many so many things to do and look out for an research on.

It's going to be a busy year 2008 ahead. With the ROM in June, we have to scout for our ideal location to set up our love nest in Jan, so that renovations can be completed by our ROM date, and if our place is big enough, I would like to hold the ROM ceremony in our own house instead of at the registry or chalet or hotel. It should be more than enough coz I think we will only be inviting our close friends, afterall it is not a weekend. Falls on a Thursday I think. And then we shall prepare for our wedding ceremony that should be held at the end of the year, probably 05 Dec 2008 (but this is a Friday). If we are too broke to hold the customary in 2008, then we shall hold it either in 05 June 2009 or 05 Dec 2009. All planned out already. Swee! Yeah!

I can't stand it. I can't stand it. I can't stand it. I can't stand it!!!!!

She is getting on my nerves. Each and every single action and word and movement of hers pisses me off tremendously. Fu*k. She eavesdropped and spied on me. She listens to things I say to each and every single person. Work or non-work related matters. She is pissing me off totally!!!!!

She wants me to hand over to her immediately and she can't wait to send her own emails. Fu*k. It's not like I dowan to let go of these 2 accounts. In fact I can't wait to handover them to her. But it takes time. These customers have their own nitty gritty requirements that even I will have some setbacks at times. I, yes me, who has been handling these accounts for the past 3 years! Who is she man, who does she think she is, she can handle them when she is only a freaking ONE week old new bird??? The 2 customers do not like people who dun know all their requirements to just suddenly pop up and start liasing with them. And she doesn't understand this despite me telling her before.

She keeps pushing me to send her samples of emails that these customers have sent to me before, claiming that she wants to know more about their requirements. Am I not translating the requirements to her enough? She asked me about the customers' email addresses. Even though I could just ask EDP to copy the email address book to her, I simply refuse to do so. She keeps pushing me to send her the report templates. All of the above, I did NOT do. I will NOT email them to her, now will I copy those emails to her. Until I feel that she is ready to handle them, then I will hand over the reports. I am only teaching her on the export part, and she is asking me about the import. Fu*k man. I have my own way to teach, and I have my own sequence. Until I feel that she is steady with the export, then I shall handover the import. Import is straightforward which is why I want her to grasp the export part first. I told her flatly when she asked me how about the import, "I want you to finish learning the export first." To which she asked me how much more there are to the export. I informed her that they have many different types of export shipments, and they do not come all at the same time. She immediately went to search my physical documents and digged out all my previous shipments and started asking me questions on them. Is she trying to be super on or wad? Who is she trying to impress? I am certainly not at all impressed by her actions. Only getting more pissed off by the day.

She wants to liase on her own with the internal depts. Fine, I shall let her go and bang her own walls and nails and head. She called traffic, in the end kenna slammed by Gillian. She actually had the cheek to keep calling William Poon to chase him to amend a CMB HAWB which had some typo errors on the consignee and notify party. The most amazing and best part is, she was the one who did the SI and gave our export ops people the wrong information and thus resulted in the error in the HAWB!!! Well done! Haha.

I dunno if I can go on my holiday in May. We had planned to go HKG during my birthday. But all things have to come to a halt coz he doesn't know how his final project will turn out to be, if sway sway unluckily dun pass *touch wood touch wood touch wood*, then he will have to spend the whole of May to redo the entire project, and if sway sway unluckily dun pass again *touch wood touch wood touch wood*, will have to repeat his whole Masters year!

Oh my god... I seriously hope this would not happen... If it does, I will have to wait for another year for him to graduate!!! Fu*k... This will not happen, everything will 'soon soon li li' go through, and he will 'soon soon li li' get a good paying job, and we will 'soon soon li li' get our Suzuki Swift and then we will 'soon soon li li' get married next year! Bo pi bo pi... Better pray hard and hope everything will 'soon soon li li'...

So now we have to wait until the end of April, and wait for his results before we can decide on any plans or schedule any holidays. It's going to be rush and probably expensive too. But no choice, we had better not take the risk, even though I have ultimate confidence that he will pass with good grades and take off in his career smoothly...

I was on leave yesterday, supposedly to select my flat at HDB. We did not turn up coz the units that we wanted have been taken up, only left storeys 2 and 3 for selection. We should be getting a resale next year in this case. I am so happy. I am finally getting married! After 8 years of hardship comes days of sweetness and I can enjoy the fruits of his labour. Haha.. He will be completing his Masters this April, and soon we will both be working adults and he can finally marry me! Haha.. Think I am getting a bit hysterical about this. It is also a good thing that we rejected the Sengkang BTO. If we had decided to take that up, we will have to wait for another 4 years to get married, by then I will be an old maid... Now that we are not taking that Sengkang flat, we can get a resale flat next year, and finally ROM on 05 June 2008 (exactly 9 years of courtship!)

We spent the day really leisurely. Woke up at our own sweet time, dressed and got ready for our outing. It's been donkey years since we went to town. So we went to Cathay to catch a movie - Primeval. Not a very nice show, but at least we did not catch it during the weekend. Would have cost us $2 extra per person. Getting a bit more miserly now, coz I have to save up for my car and flat. I hope our car can come before our flat. Really looking forward to getting our own car.

Bought a Precious Moments figurine. We had wanted to get a PM figurine every occassion (such as Valentine's day, anniversary, birthdays, Xmas and what have you) and so that we can display them in our new flat. We had dragged this for quite some time, and finally got down to it yesterday. This PM figurine shall be the belated one for our Valentine's Day this year. This is it - "Sometimes You're Next to Impossible".

I think it is very apt, coz I believe this is what James feels at times when he can't get through to me. Haha..

Anyway, I bought a small wallet and a lighter for Shanel. I dunno why I got the lighter for her, just suddenly felt like buying something for her. Mad woman ah.. Haha..

Oh, I must blog about this uncle whom we caught trying to chat up a young girl in the MRT. The young girl looked like she is in her later teens, probably about 17 or 18, a bit Eurasian. She board the MRT at Pasir Ris and was reading her story book and listening to her MP3. Wearing a bikini and a dress over the blue bikini. Then at Bedok or Tanah Merah, this uncle in his late forties or early fifties board the train and took the seat next to her. Suddenly we saw them talking. The girl had a weird expression and I HEARD the uncle say to the girl, "So can I have your contact number, as a friend?" The girl gave an astonished look and rejected him. He repeated the "as a friend" and the girl told him "But I am very young!" The uncle said its ok, just friends. The girl told him, "Sorry, I would rather not." Oh my goodness, and he continued to chat up the girl, trying to get her to give him her number. This is the first time I have witnessed such a thing. Shameless old man! I only hope the girl did not get into any problem or difficulty.

We quarrelled again. This is the second time in a span of 2 short weeks. I can't believe it. Makes me wonder if I have failed very badly as a girlfriend... The first quarrel made my heart bled, it hurt very much and before I can recover much, the second quarrel happened.

After yesterday's incident, I feel that I have been a very lousy girlfriend. I am unable to share his burden, his stress and his worries. In fact I have only been bothering him every day with my share of grumbles and ramblings. I haven't been as understanding as I should be and this is where I have failed. Failed very badly. I can't seem to open up my thots even though mentally I know I should be feeling this way, but emotionally, I can't let go and keep thinking otherwise.

The second quarrel made me look back at our relationship. I am scared. Where exactly are we heading to? We have applied for a flat, and this Friday to select our unit. But is this really the future that withholds for both of us? I dunno.. Really dunno and am pretty afraid that the the future is not what we have pictured or even similar.

I am suddenly afraid of the future. The dark and bleak future. Where is it leading me to and who will walk this dark journey with me? Will I end up all alone, walking endlessly to an end without a stop???

Lately I have been very interested in sign languages. I have been pondering on what new courses I can take to enrich myself. Wanted to sign up for Jap or Korean classes, but the timing clashes with the Cardiobox that I intend to take up with Shanel at Tampines Stadium. So I decided to take up sign language. I feel that it is a very interesting language and have always been amazed at how the deaf and mute can sign so fast and communicate through these signs. I have mastered A to Z already. Felicia taught Shanel and I when we took the bus to Tampines on Monday evening. So yesterday during lunch, Shanel and I were signing like mad, and always breaking into hysterical laughters and nobody knows why. And usually by the time we finish signing a WORD, we are already exhuasted. Too long already! Hahahaha

Shanel's new cosy nest is almost totally up. Looking at her so excited with each and every decor, lightings, furniture, makes me really envy her and I can't wait to have my own home too. Already have so many plans and ideas in my mind, but can't realise them as yet, it is a kinda torture and makes next year feel like it's never going to come. I can't wait to view the flats, decide on the contractor, decide on the furnishings, decide on the colors of the flat, decide on which electrical appliances we going to buy, etc. There are so many so many things to do and look out for an research on.

It's going to be a busy year 2008 ahead. With the ROM in June, we have to scout for our ideal location to set up our love nest in Jan, so that renovations can be completed by our ROM date, and if our place is big enough, I would like to hold the ROM ceremony in our own house instead of at the registry or chalet or hotel. It should be more than enough coz I think we will only be inviting our close friends, afterall it is not a weekend. Falls on a Thursday I think. And then we shall prepare for our wedding ceremony that should be held at the end of the year, probably 05 Dec 2008 (but this is a Friday). If we are too broke to hold the customary in 2008, then we shall hold it either in 05 June 2009 or 05 Dec 2009. All planned out already. Swee! Yeah!

I can't stand it. I can't stand it. I can't stand it. I can't stand it!!!!!

She is getting on my nerves. Each and every single action and word and movement of hers pisses me off tremendously. Fu*k. She eavesdropped and spied on me. She listens to things I say to each and every single person. Work or non-work related matters. She is pissing me off totally!!!!!

She wants me to hand over to her immediately and she can't wait to send her own emails. Fu*k. It's not like I dowan to let go of these 2 accounts. In fact I can't wait to handover them to her. But it takes time. These customers have their own nitty gritty requirements that even I will have some setbacks at times. I, yes me, who has been handling these accounts for the past 3 years! Who is she man, who does she think she is, she can handle them when she is only a freaking ONE week old new bird??? The 2 customers do not like people who dun know all their requirements to just suddenly pop up and start liasing with them. And she doesn't understand this despite me telling her before.

She keeps pushing me to send her samples of emails that these customers have sent to me before, claiming that she wants to know more about their requirements. Am I not translating the requirements to her enough? She asked me about the customers' email addresses. Even though I could just ask EDP to copy the email address book to her, I simply refuse to do so. She keeps pushing me to send her the report templates. All of the above, I did NOT do. I will NOT email them to her, now will I copy those emails to her. Until I feel that she is ready to handle them, then I will hand over the reports. I am only teaching her on the export part, and she is asking me about the import. Fu*k man. I have my own way to teach, and I have my own sequence. Until I feel that she is steady with the export, then I shall handover the import. Import is straightforward which is why I want her to grasp the export part first. I told her flatly when she asked me how about the import, "I want you to finish learning the export first." To which she asked me how much more there are to the export. I informed her that they have many different types of export shipments, and they do not come all at the same time. She immediately went to search my physical documents and digged out all my previous shipments and started asking me questions on them. Is she trying to be super on or wad? Who is she trying to impress? I am certainly not at all impressed by her actions. Only getting more pissed off by the day.

She wants to liase on her own with the internal depts. Fine, I shall let her go and bang her own walls and nails and head. She called traffic, in the end kenna slammed by Gillian. She actually had the cheek to keep calling William Poon to chase him to amend a CMB HAWB which had some typo errors on the consignee and notify party. The most amazing and best part is, she was the one who did the SI and gave our export ops people the wrong information and thus resulted in the error in the HAWB!!! Well done! Haha.

I dunno if I can go on my holiday in May. We had planned to go HKG during my birthday. But all things have to come to a halt coz he doesn't know how his final project will turn out to be, if sway sway unluckily dun pass *touch wood touch wood touch wood*, then he will have to spend the whole of May to redo the entire project, and if sway sway unluckily dun pass again *touch wood touch wood touch wood*, will have to repeat his whole Masters year!

Oh my god... I seriously hope this would not happen... If it does, I will have to wait for another year for him to graduate!!! Fu*k... This will not happen, everything will 'soon soon li li' go through, and he will 'soon soon li li' get a good paying job, and we will 'soon soon li li' get our Suzuki Swift and then we will 'soon soon li li' get married next year! Bo pi bo pi... Better pray hard and hope everything will 'soon soon li li'...

So now we have to wait until the end of April, and wait for his results before we can decide on any plans or schedule any holidays. It's going to be rush and probably expensive too. But no choice, we had better not take the risk, even though I have ultimate confidence that he will pass with good grades and take off in his career smoothly...

I was on leave yesterday, supposedly to select my flat at HDB. We did not turn up coz the units that we wanted have been taken up, only left storeys 2 and 3 for selection. We should be getting a resale next year in this case. I am so happy. I am finally getting married! After 8 years of hardship comes days of sweetness and I can enjoy the fruits of his labour. Haha.. He will be completing his Masters this April, and soon we will both be working adults and he can finally marry me! Haha.. Think I am getting a bit hysterical about this. It is also a good thing that we rejected the Sengkang BTO. If we had decided to take that up, we will have to wait for another 4 years to get married, by then I will be an old maid... Now that we are not taking that Sengkang flat, we can get a resale flat next year, and finally ROM on 05 June 2008 (exactly 9 years of courtship!)

We spent the day really leisurely. Woke up at our own sweet time, dressed and got ready for our outing. It's been donkey years since we went to town. So we went to Cathay to catch a movie - Primeval. Not a very nice show, but at least we did not catch it during the weekend. Would have cost us $2 extra per person. Getting a bit more miserly now, coz I have to save up for my car and flat. I hope our car can come before our flat. Really looking forward to getting our own car.

Bought a Precious Moments figurine. We had wanted to get a PM figurine every occassion (such as Valentine's day, anniversary, birthdays, Xmas and what have you) and so that we can display them in our new flat. We had dragged this for quite some time, and finally got down to it yesterday. This PM figurine shall be the belated one for our Valentine's Day this year. This is it - "Sometimes You're Next to Impossible".

I think it is very apt, coz I believe this is what James feels at times when he can't get through to me. Haha..

Anyway, I bought a small wallet and a lighter for Shanel. I dunno why I got the lighter for her, just suddenly felt like buying something for her. Mad woman ah.. Haha..

Oh, I must blog about this uncle whom we caught trying to chat up a young girl in the MRT. The young girl looked like she is in her later teens, probably about 17 or 18, a bit Eurasian. She board the MRT at Pasir Ris and was reading her story book and listening to her MP3. Wearing a bikini and a dress over the blue bikini. Then at Bedok or Tanah Merah, this uncle in his late forties or early fifties board the train and took the seat next to her. Suddenly we saw them talking. The girl had a weird expression and I HEARD the uncle say to the girl, "So can I have your contact number, as a friend?" The girl gave an astonished look and rejected him. He repeated the "as a friend" and the girl told him "But I am very young!" The uncle said its ok, just friends. The girl told him, "Sorry, I would rather not." Oh my goodness, and he continued to chat up the girl, trying to get her to give him her number. This is the first time I have witnessed such a thing. Shameless old man! I only hope the girl did not get into any problem or difficulty.

We quarrelled again. This is the second time in a span of 2 short weeks. I can't believe it. Makes me wonder if I have failed very badly as a girlfriend... The first quarrel made my heart bled, it hurt very much and before I can recover much, the second quarrel happened.

After yesterday's incident, I feel that I have been a very lousy girlfriend. I am unable to share his burden, his stress and his worries. In fact I have only been bothering him every day with my share of grumbles and ramblings. I haven't been as understanding as I should be and this is where I have failed. Failed very badly. I can't seem to open up my thots even though mentally I know I should be feeling this way, but emotionally, I can't let go and keep thinking otherwise.

The second quarrel made me look back at our relationship. I am scared. Where exactly are we heading to? We have applied for a flat, and this Friday to select our unit. But is this really the future that withholds for both of us? I dunno.. Really dunno and am pretty afraid that the the future is not what we have pictured or even similar.

I am suddenly afraid of the future. The dark and bleak future. Where is it leading me to and who will walk this dark journey with me? Will I end up all alone, walking endlessly to an end without a stop???